It’s been a little while since I have posted but life has been pretty hectic lately and I’ve not had the motivation to be honest. I’m hoping this post changes that, because I enjoy sharing my journey.
Today (if I’ve counted correctly) is day 40 of being sober which means I am within touching distance of my ‘record’ which goes as ‘a month and a half’ (I was too busy gasping for a beer to actually record the number of days last time).
On the whole, it’s been easier than I thought but having read some other blogs, I do realise that I’ve not really been in the line of fire too many times, ie in a pub/at parties with lots of friends who are getting drunk. Sure, I’ve had moments where I previously would have loved a beer – BBQs, gig and meals out, BUT I’ve avoided big social gatherings – not necessarily on purpose but that’s just the way life’s been lately and I’m thankful for that. Being a new Dad and a working husband means that the majority of spare time away from work is at home – being where I should be 🙂 .
I also think the biggest tests are going to come when I’m around people who are awkward to talk to and/or I don’t wholly like. Those are the times that I used to really get stuck into drinking, as a way of making conversation easier and more comfortable.
So how does 40 days feel? It’s a mixture of feelings and thoughts. Some things are vastly different and some things are 100% the same or even worse, to my surprise. I’ve thought a lot about picking specific things to discuss but I’m going to borrow a simple list from Catherine Gray and her book ‘The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober’ which I’ve now almost finished.
I’ve definitely lost weight and a few people have mentioned that to me which is great to hear. My weight tends to fluctuate because I have an enormous appetite and I basically each too much – always have, always will I suspect. Even though I do a lot of exercise (running and swimming mainly) I always worry about my weight and particularly my tummy. Not drinking has allowed me to really kick on with my training and I’m eating much better, too. Win-win!
I’ve read lots of people comment on how great their skin and hair are as a result of not drinking. Well my skin has possibly got worse – definitely more spots appearing, which are lingering longer. I’m drinking stacks of water and eating pretty well, so this is pissing me off! I can’t really comment on my hair as I have it very closely cropped.
My eyes and nails look no different to before at the moment – to me anyway.
Energy levels are generally pretty good and it’s great to actually be tired because of exertion, rather than being hungover or under the influence. I absolutely LOVE not being hungover – it’s probably the best thing about going alcohol-free. I hate hangovers with a passion and they make me feel utterly miserable, depressed and paranoid.
Because I’m not drinking, I’m less inclined to eat rubbish and in turn I’m sleeping better – a healthy cycle.
I’ve never been a fantastic sleeper, even if you take booze out of the equation, but generally speaking it is better and I do feel much more rested when I wake up in the morning. I also love getting into bed feeling genuinely tired – because I’ve worked hard, or I’ve trained hard or just generally been productive throughout the day.
This weekend is pretty busy – I have a work event on Saturday which I organise bi-annually and I’m participating in a team triathlon the following day followed by a curry in town. Usually both of these days would involve some very thirst quenching drinks and I fear they will offer one of my toughest tests yet.
I’ll keep you posted.